no
NO!
there is no reality where i would accept that.
that is my worst fear.
NO!
under no circumstances is this the truth.
THERE IS NO WAY!
the way it got handled certainly could have been better.
HOW?
someone would think mistakes were made to learn from them
NOT AGAIN, NOT WITH THIS,
i simply won’t accept it,
id be shattered, teared into pieces, unfix-able dismembered
that moment i would get to know, i would turn into a shell, a shell without any life in it what so ever.
please don’t let me become that shell